I am spending this week steeped in the wisdom, presence, inspiration and challenge of my sisters in leadership at the Leadership Conference of Women Religious annual assembly. This is my fourth assembly, the second I have attended in my role as an elected leader of my own congregation (the first two I was here representing Giving Voice). As one sister shared yesterday, this experience of contemplative listening and dialogue with 800 other sisters has been balm for my soul.
Yesterday, Sister Pat Farrell, OSF gave one of the keynote presentations, “Leading from the Allure of Holy Mystery: Contemplation and Transformation.” Pat was of course the president of LCWR during the kerfuffle with Rome. Her integrity and contemplative leadership helped us shift the narrative and reality of our relationship with the hierarchical church from one of conflict to one of faithful dialogue. I was particularly moved by this passage of her talk:
“This is our moment. The world around us teeters on the edge of both peril and promise. Breakdown and breakthrough tussle with each other. The path forward is hidden in fog. It is your time to lead. To do so you must learn to be led and to listen deeply. Together we will discover personal and communal processes for deep prayer and dialogue. We will be given what we need to tend the soul of our communities by nurturing contemplative spaciousness.”
In other words, to lead in fog, we must be led.
Yesterday, another sister shared an image that came out of her small group contemplative dialogue experience.
“When the redwood sits in the fog (rooted in contemplation) it absorbs the moisture within the fog and nourishes the entire tree and allows the moisture to reach the earth which nourishes other creatures. We (LCWR and our congregations) are a forest of redwoods focused on contemplation that the world may thrive.”
A northwesterner at heart, I immediately imagined this picture in my heart, which I took this summer on retreat in Oregon not of redwoods but evergreens in fog.
Truth be told, I have been feeling a bit lost in the fog of late. The fog of fear, hatred, and isolationism which seems to be taking hold among much of our body politic. The fog of grief and loss that is such a part of religious life these days, as our elders transition to the next phase of their journey with God. The fog of uncertainty about exactly what the future holds for our communities which are in the midst of yet another period of transition and transformation. Lots of fog.
This week in Atlanta has given me companions in the fog and given me a clarity in the mist. Contemplation is the way. And so, once again, I recommit to my own regular contemplative practice, in my own life and in my life in community. As another group shared during our contemplative dialogue process, contemplation is essential to leadership.
I remember many years ago when I was discerning religious life, I felt like I was driving down a mountainous road in the dark, where my headlights only showed the way a few feet ahead. I felt an invitation to trust that when I turned the bend, I would see the next steps, and so it has been. At this particular moment, to be honest, I feel like the high beams would only reflect back to blind me. I cannot see the way forward. And yet, I feel called to stay on the path by my loving God. Jesus is the way, even in the fog, and it is in the still quiet moments that the Spirit speaks. We need only to listen, to listen often, and to listen deeply.
3 thoughts on “To lead in fog, we must be led”
I appreciate hearing how Sister Marcia’s luminous words are being heard by participants.
“Lead, kindly light, amidst the encircling gloom; lead Thou me on….”
This essay is a light to me.
One of my problems is the exclusion of women from Holy Orders. The RCC is only 50% Catholic, or less.
The influences of other times and other cultures holds us back from celebrating the gift and gifts of women. From the Pentateuch, through (Aristotle), Augustine, Aquinas,…., Paul VI, JP II, Benedict, men have been wearing blinders. Rejecting the physical attraction of women, we have rejected their intelligence, sensitivity, and spirituality. Ironically using women to educate (indoctrinate) the People of God.
I love the phrase “contemplative spaciousness.” Yes!